Something happened yesterday. I admit, sometimes I no longer have time for my daughter. The same thing as usual, when I’m about to sleep, she’s already awake. But yesterday, I couldn’t hold it any longer. I was so sleepy that I don’t remember if she has asked for something.

I thought I was dreaming when she asked for didi. I think I just nodded and went back to sleep. Even if my mom is around, she prefers to stay in the bedroom with me.

Until suddenly, my brother came knocking. I woke up, Deye wasn’t there beside me. Then, my brother said “tingnan mo si Deye gumagawa na ng didi nya” (look at Deye, she’s making herself a bottle of milk). I got up from bed in just a snap and saw my little girl holding her feeding bottle in one hand and struggling to scoop her milk with her other hand (the table where I keep her milk and bottles is about 5 inches above her height, so imagine….)

I felt sorry for her. I asked her why didn’t you tell Mama…. she said “because… because…. you are sleeping”.

This is the disadvantage that I get - working from home on a graveyard shift.